“Owning our story can be hard but not nearly as difficult as spending our lives running from it. Embracing our vulnerabilities is risky but not nearly as dangerous as giving up on love and belonging and joy—the experiences that make us the most vulnerable. Only when we are brave enough to explore the darkness will we discover the infinite power of our light.”
― Brene Brown
This morning as I was waking, I had a conscious flash that revealed a very real rage… I have been hearing about this rage – that so many of us women supposedly hold. And although I have worked through many layers of anger and grief related to specific traumatic events in my past, the glimmer of this flavor of rage that I was tapping into felt both comprehensive and collective. It was a rage felt for a life lived in denial of my True Self.
With just over 40 years to reflect on, for the first time, I was able to tap into how penetrating and constant this rage has been… although almost entirely unconscious until now. So this raises another question – So what do I do now? Now that I can see it…what do I do about it? How do I process through it, feel into it, release it, grieve what has been lost because of it in order to arrive at acceptance? All of these are steps that I know I must take yet the path through the dark is still unclear. (Intellectually I can see the end point, yet I know that the feeling work MUST be done… it is non-negotiable.)
I once heard the Truth from a very wise woman who said, “The path to Freedom is messy… meeeeeeessssssyyyyyyyy.” I know this to be true… the path to Freedom, for me, requires walking through the fire of vulnerability. In the past, I had hoped there was a handy secret passageway around the fire pit. Now I know that searching for those fantasy secret passageways is only a distraction from the real task at hand. Looks like I have some fire walking in my future. I do love an adventure… I imagine this will be an Adventure with a capital “A”.
How about you? What Adventure tips or tools have served you well on your own path to Freedom?